Tasks and upcoming hopes

Last night, I took a night off from drinking.  In addition, I completed my meal three and a half hours before I went to bed.  I keep reading how this is beneficial to allowing your digestive organs to rest while you are sleeping as opposed to continuing to work.  Maybe there is some truth in that.

Moreover, I listened to brainwave meditation while I slept.  That helped.  It helped me turn off my brain and sleep.  I cannot tell you how many times, I have woken up multiple times because I cannot stop thinking.  All of the anxieties, fears, doubts.  It can be overwhelming.  Lately, it seems that I only think of things that could go wrong.  Inherently, I know that I am ok and will continue to be fine.  I think it is my subconscious trying to persuade me to return to the service industry.  I have attempted it in the past and always failed to break completely away.  It is too comfortable to return to the flexibility.  

Another cooler day in Denver.  It feels awesome.  After about seven weeks of heat, I am ready for a reprieve.  My classes are spaced out throughout the day.  Instead of running errands, I am choosing to prep for classes this weekend, my upcoming newsletter. some creative outlets and then taking another day off from drinking.  My sleep is improving and I feel that I should take a detox break.  June and July were both larger than life months.  Trips to Santa Fe, Kansas and Washington State.  Friends visiting me a few times in Santa Fe.  Basically, a lot of celebrating and rich food.  I am all for that.  Yet, it catches up with me.  I need to take breaks from rich food and drinking to feel normal in my diet.  

Shari and I spoke about the possibility of the half marathon in Paso Robles. We agreed we should delay it.  Neither of us has been running much (or at all).  Not to mention, she is adjusting to RV life and being more nomadic.  Running is not in her regime as of yet.  Plus, I will be in California a few times in the next six months.  A wedding in October then celebrating Brian's anniversary in Palm Springs in February.  I have another wedding in Wichita Falls in March.  I think I am making up for not traveling much after March 2020.  What a dire few years.  Flying last weekend reminded me how much I enjoy traveling, experiencing new cities and meeting new people.  I love Denver and the life I have here.  Yet, I have been missing that component of creativity and experiencing new foods.  I would have been so disappointed in myself if I had chosen to skip Jean's 60th birthday celebration.  Not only did it motivate more travel but I also was able to celebrate with one of my oldest friends.  There is no way that I would have been able to replicate that experience.  We are considering a trip to Hawaii or perhaps, San Miguel de Allende in 2023.  We shall see.

I have missed making time to write.  I write letters and journal sometimes.  I need to make more of an effort to fulfill that need.  

Returning from my mini break

Leaning into the life that you want....starting to make space for it.  I love that I am listening to a podcast today, perusing pinterest for yoga marketing ideas and contemplating my next moves.  I cannot believe that I was blogging, frequently, and making progress with it to completely drop it.  Why?

Today, I will make an effort to return to the structure of blogging daily.  I enjoy it.  Maybe I have been floundering a little bit.  It is challenging to stay the course when money seems stagnant.  Or, maybe not stagnant but ever changing.  Clients vacation, have illness, loss in the family, injury and changing schedules.  I believe I will be fine.  Actually, I know this.  However, as schedules continue to change, I sometimes question if I am on the right path.

It is true that the WHY is the most important thing to determine when you choose to do your own thing.  Of course, it is always easier to return to your comfort zone.  I could easily return to the restaurant industry tomorrow, full time.  Yet, it is not what I want to be doing.  I want to be working for myself, sharing my love of yoga and meeting new people.  I have always been a connector but I want to elevate that.  I truly want to connect people who would never meet in any other circumstance without attending a yoga class. I am sure I could explain it in another way.  I like that I attract an eclectic mix of people who meet and make connections.  There.  That sounds better.

What is next?  There are so many resources out there to figure out how to continue on this path.  I have arranged a pop up in Denver and Santa Fe, monthly.  It is gaining momentum and it feels great.  It takes planning, effort and consistency.  I must stay committed to the discipline of what I need to be doing.  Reading more.  Teaching.  Blogging.  Creating content and continuing to learn.  Be authentic and genuine.  I know these things but I still go slow with what I am doing.  I must think bigger.

I have hesitated to handle my website.  I have a free website being designed.  The hesitation is the content that I want on it.  It is all on me.  I will stop being stagnant.  

Sorry this is a little of a rant.  I need a creative outlet and have forgotten how much I enjoy blogging.  My summer has been wonderful.  Many trips to Santa Fe.  Lunches at La Choza, pop up park yoga, meeting new people.  Building my business and planting seeds.  

Thank you for enabling me to vent and be a little nonsensical.  I am going to lean into the life that I want.  It is time.