Staying the path. Choosing to

I hate waking up in the middle of the night.  Typically, I am able to fall back asleep to some degree.  Last night, it evaded me.  I woke up at midnight and struggled to fall back asleep.  I kept looking at my phone to see what time it was. 1:18. 1:45.  2:30.  3:15.  It was painful.  

This continued until 5:30 when I had set an alarm to wake up.  I had agreed to teach an a.m. yoga class at 6:15.  At this point, I received simultaneous text messages to contact me about not being able to do the class due to work and sick kiddo.  I got up and tried to get comfortable on my couch.  I put on a show to provide some noise and managed to sleep for about an hour and a half.  

I look forward to being able to sleep tonight.  A light nap, shower and lots of water.  For me, if I do not get adequate sleep or hydration, I tend to get laryngitis.  It has happened multiple times and each encounter seems to worsen and extend.  I am exhausted.  I attempted a few sleep meditations but to no avail.  It has been an awful 24 hours.

I think I am overthinking.  I try to relax and stop the racing mind.  Any suggestions on how to counter this?  There is a movie that recently came out that is similar to the Secret. I signed up to view it but almost immediately, realized that it was not speaking to me.  I read a few reviews and felt that it had received mixed feedback.  I tried to stay interested.  Truly, I wanted to be inspired.  Perhaps, I missed out on something.  I do not feel like I did.

Instead, it motivated me to reflect on things that have helped me in the past.  Journaling.  Meditating.  Blogging.  It is easy to get bogged down in a negative head space.  Believe me.  I have questioned my decision to pursue my passion.  Is it the right choice?  Am I doing the right thing?  What else could I be doing?  How do I not let my thoughts race at night?  Should I return to a more normal employment?  

I spoke to Shari about her decision to buy an RV and tour the United States.  She has had doubts of distress and discouragement, too.  I told her it was normal when we embark on alternative paths that do not make sense to others in our life.  I feel that I speak from experience as the last two years have been challenging.  Then, I remember my why.  Why I chose to embark on this path.  Why I will continue to stay on this path.  

I am hopeful for a full night of sleep.  I need it.  I know that I am unable to go to sleep before 9:30.  Otherwise, I will wake up, again, in the middle of the night.  I cannot have consecutive nights of lousy sleep.  Tomorrow, I see my trainer which will require energy.  The idea of being unsinkable can help.  Maybe the movie should have focused more on how to be unsinkable.  Maybe it did after twenty minutes.  There was no hook for me.  I saw my interest dwindling and so I returned to what makes me tick.  Journaling.  Meditating.  And, blogging.  

I hope you have a wonderful rest of your night.  Find your purpose and stay the course.