Another question from the journal rolodex....who am I when I'm alone?
Hmmm....many things. Currently, reflective and a tad bit sad. Happy, getting better, feeling healthy. Excited, anxious, stressed. Is it okay to be all of these things? I might be more.
I am traveling tomorrow. I have most of it packed and have a few more items to put together. I am taking a lot this time. Food, my blender, swim suit, stuff for Ojo Caliente, things to read, yoga planner, clothes and a few other items. Oh, and wine. I picked up some wine this evening so that I could focus on arriving, going directly to La Choza and then teaching Melanie at 4 pm. I am excited for this mini adventure and already planning my next one. I feel drawn to flying to Florida. I miss my friend, Sara Jo.
I am expressive, creative, vibrant, crazy, intense, extreme. All of these things make me who I am. I remember buying a plane ticket to Greece. My plan was to travel for six months and then figure out what I wanted to do. Be it, stay abroad, or return stateside. Then, 9/11 happened and my life altered its course. I ended up in Denver where I have been off and of since 2001. I met Brian which encouraged me to stay here. He died in 2006. Another wrench in my life plans. I traveled for 5 months hoping to find myself. Maybe I found a piece of me during that time. I was pretty okay with whatever happened. Sort of melancholy and I think I freaked out the majority of my family. I was not drawn to death but I was okay if I was done. Grief does that. I had no inspiration. I was always sad about what I had lost.
Then, eventually, I grew out of that and found myself back in Denver. Motivated to do something new and find a way to travel. I started running which opened me up to a new friend group. In some ways, I feel that I always find a new opportunity.
Currently, I feel a little stuck. Or maybe I think I am stuck because I am not seeing enough results. As you can see, I am all over the place with this question. Extremely reflective
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