Adapt, pivot, change

Today I am still in New Mexico.  By choice.

Tom mentioned that he would be able to join me on any activity.  We could walk to Museum Hill (which I was interested in), explore Meow Wolf, road trip north or south, chill at his house or perform any activity by 3 pm.  I had a prearranged yoga class.

The road trip was out.  I had an 8-8:45 class.  The window of opportunity was closing.  He showered and decided that Meow Wolf was the way to go.  My first experience with this interactive museum.  Arriving at 10 allowed us to decrease the petri dish effect until about 11:15. I can't help myself.  I do become a little claustrophobic.

The museum was interesting.  Many nooks, crannies and opportunities to be interactive.  We explored the upstairs area before discovering the washing machine, refrigerator, other random doors.  I am thankful for checking the museum out and grateful that we left before noon.

We chose a local spot for a quick lunch.  In the past, I have enjoyed beers and a sandwich at this spot.  Today, was not that spectacular.  Instead of sharing a sandwich (which is the way to go) we shared a few smaller meals.  Red chile fries (Tom's choice) and a Mediterranean spread.  The dip was unfulfilling.  Granted they aren't charging that much for it which I didn't even notice.  But the quantity and quality of the dip was subpar.

The red chile fries could have been thicker, crispier and more done.  I opted to add a cobb salad to the meal in an attempt to improve the experience.  It didn't work.  The entire experience was subpar at best.  

 A quick wine stop and then being responsible.  I had a class at 3 pm.  I told Tom that I would need to be responsible.  About five minutes to three, my client texts me to update me on their situation.  Their refrigerator was out.  They were with her landlord and the contractor trying to problem solve the issue.  I offered to wait fifteen minutes.  Then, she responded that she needed more time.

I get it.  I do.  There are some things you cannot plan for.  Yet had I considered this was the way the day would unfold, I would have insisted that Tom and I embark on a road trip.  He loves discovering chicken fried steaks.  And it is rare for him to not work a Tuesday.

Life is grand.  Make it the best day!

Saturday morning vibes

I have the best clients.

Seriously.  They are on time, attentive and bring gifts.  Bear claws, bubbles and sometimes, the random Sonicare toothbrush.  I think about relocating and then I remember how fortunate I am.  My clients are amazing!

Today, we tried out a new flow and active sequence.  Instead of doing chatarangas, we did pushups in the sun salutation A.  It was a nice change up.  Why not throw in a little bit of strength?  

My intention was to finish this on Saturday.  Instead, I got sidetracked by packing and work.  The restaurant was busy, and I was there until 12:15 which is not normal.  I was in bed by 1 am and woke up at 5:45 to drive to Santa Fe.  Initially, I had hoped to leave by 6 instead of 7 am.  I was co-hosting book club with Tom and wanted to be able to help him prep.  The drive south was smooth, and I arrived at 11:52.  Making great time.  I was incredibly thankful for the timing.  

Book club was fun.  We had oysters, Bolognese, charcuterie--cheese, prosciutto, sausage, and a seven-layer Greek dip.  That was my contribution.  Surprisingly, it was well received.  An afternoon of lively conversation, music and wine.  Tom's friends met a few of mine and it was great.  His friends have attended book club before, and I think the addition of my friends was a nice change up.  

I will be in Santa Fe till Wednesday.  I have an in-person session at my apartment on Wednesday evening.  I am leading a winter solstice session with light appetizers to follow.  The seven-layer dip will make an appearance.  It is the perfect rehydrating snack.  Salty, savory and somewhat healthy.  I could minimize the feta and make it more health driven.  I believe four students will be in attendance.  Any more than that and I will be teaching from my bedroom.  

It is time to embrace the solstice and the importance of it.  Reflect, release and set intentions for the new season.  Perfect timing for beginning 2023.  Isn't it time to try something new in your life?  Tom has a project in his home that he has spoken about for the last eight months.  I am ready to YouTube how to tile a home.  I am tired of talking about it.  I want to have it done to help make his home feel more settled.  And I am prepared to learn how to do it instead of continuing to talk about it. 

I hope to reflect on other areas that I can grow and learn.  I feel a pull to Santa Fe and believe I will relocate in the next six to eight months.  How to make yoga work in Santa Fe and retain clients?  Some prefer in-person sessions.  Others are fine with virtual.  I am a fan of both.  There is convenience in the zoom classes.  In-person classes are more energetic.  As noted, I never know what to expect.  Bear claws offered, watching KU basketball or contemplating monkey pox?  I never know what to expect and it is fantastic.  

Happy Monday!  Make it a beautiful week.

Friday thoughts

Happy Friday!  Another beautiful day in Denver.  At least it appears that way.  It could be deceptive as it has been in the past week.  Sun is shining.  In about an hour and a half, I will discover the temperature outside.  I am determined to walk City Park today.  Yesterday, I got jammed up with tasks regarding my car tags.  The new car has been a different experience for me.  The first vehicle I have ever financed.  In hindsight, I wish I would have paid for it outright.  I wouldn't be paying extra for car insurance or a percentage for the financing.

Although had I paid for it outright, I would have struggled to deal with the expenses that have happened unexpectedly.  I believed the title would arrive within a few weeks of purchase.  My temporary tags were about to expire and so I approached the DMV to find out my options.  The kid told me that there were many people waiting on titles and that I could extend the temporary tags for $7.03.  Better yet, he said, return to where you bought the car, and they can grant you another temporary tag for no additional cost.  I texted the dealer who I think was not looking forward to seeing me in person.  I am sure that the mechanic updated him on my unhappiness with the car.  When I first called him, he hung up on me.  Then when I called back, it went straight to voice mail.  Affirmation that these men have sold cars to people, knowing, that the vehicles are not sound to some degree.  I had read a few reviews noting that.  I chose to believe the mechanic who turned me on the car and being seduced by the mileage instead of truly trusting my gut.

At any rate, I secured the temporary tag yesterday.  The guy had everything ready for me and when I returned home, I checked my mail and saw that the title notice had arrived.  Ironic.  I am waiting to handle the title and taxes until next year since I will be out of town and do not want to hang out more at the DMV.  

We are celebrating Tom's birthday on Sunday.  He didn't want a celebration so instead we labeled it as book club.  Book club where he cooks, and we listen to music.  He is insistent on Bolognese.  One of his friends always brings oysters.  I want to contribute a seven layered Greek dip.  And Zoe offered to bring charcuterie and bacon wrapped dates.  

A night of decadence.   Lots of wine.  I picked up mezcal to sip since that was a cornerstone of Tom and I meeting.  The first night he took me to dinner we ended the night at Del Charro, sipping mezcal.  I think that will continue to be important to us to celebrate and remember.

Focusing on the positive and navigating life.  My sleep continues to be off and on.  Guided meditation is helping.  It, at least, distracts my subconscious mind from running wild.  Maybe I will try the turn off devices a few hours before bed to see if that helps sleep.  I do have books to read.  Any other suggestions for improving sleep quality?

Make it a great day!

feeling like a brand new penny

I love self-care.  I endorse it.  I try to incorporate it, monthly.  Pedicure.  Massage.  Facial.  Body scrub.  I have never been a fan of manicures.  I think it is due to the fact that I have worked in too many restaurants.  The chip factor never goes away.  

I have been blessed to take care of myself in this fashion monthly.  Sometimes, I skip the facial or massage.  I seem to be consistent with the thai massage and body scrub.

This month, I am faltering.  I chose to schedule the body scrub which is the most decadent/amazing experience.  Havana Spa has been offering a discount for the last four months.  Ten dollars off their additional services.  I think, it was to retain clientele.  Recently, it was sold to a new company.  They seem nice.

They increased the prices of services and made a few improvements.  Soap is readily available.  The other couple would hand you a towel and make like--be on your way.  If you asked for bar soap, they would provide it.  Yet, it wasn't standard to make it available.

The older lady knew who I was.  Anytime, I called to schedule an appointment, she would say---ohhhhh, Harmony.   Yessss....body scrub.  Okay.  1 o'clock?

At one point, she called me a "good" Korean.  I think since I regularly attended to my skin.  The body scrubs are legendary.  My skin feels amazing afterwards.  I am so thankful to have found this spot.

The new owners are nice but seem corporate.  I have been, at least, five times, and still, they seem confused when I call.  There is something to be said about consistency and recognition.  Today, when I went there were about three people enjoying the amenities.  I showered and entered the dry sauna.  Two minutes later, someone joined me.  Then, another woman entered.  She opened the door, closed it and reopened it.  She was releasing the hot air to my frustration.  I tried to avoid being confrontational.  Until another walked in and sat on the bench beneath me and started a conversation with the air releasing chick.

That was it.  I had had it!  I moved to the steam sauna.  To silence.  Heat.  Detoxing.

I went to the crystal sauna and meditated.  I thought I would have time to soak before my appointment.  Time went by quickly.  The scrub was fantastic.  Consistent.  Even and I feel amazing.

I think I will decrease my pedicures in 2023.  Possibly the massage, too. I refuse to decrease the body scrub.  The benefits outweigh the costs.  Circulation, nourishment, someone washing my hair.  It all is amazing.

Do something, for you, that makes you feel like a brand new penny.  If I can make a suggestion, let me know.  It is essential to take care of you and your body.  Cheers!

Good vibes only

Continuing with consistency and building habits.  As such, this requires good vibes only.  Good vibes to propel through any discomfort or unknown.  

I woke up around 3 a.m.  I put on another guided meditation to distract overthinking.  It seemed to work.  I managed to wake up at 6:30. Refreshed and ready to greet the day.  My morning routine involves making coffee, juicing and setting intentions.  

Everything was going well until the juicing got a little out of control.  I love Juno and she travels with me.  Yet, she is getting a little older and some of her attachments are wonky.  This morning, I spilled a fair amount of celery juice after it tried to explode.  The juice was ok.  I know that I have made others that I like better.  I needed more spice.  The apple, pineapple, celery, carrot, ginger, serrano and lemon were a little too tame.  Tomorrow, I will do something different.

Intention setting is new to my routine.  In the past, I have tried gratitude water.  Basically, you write down three to five affirmations and tape it to your water bottle.  It is a reminder of what you are thankful for as you hydrate.  Afterwards, I fold up the affirmations, place them in a glass jar and leave them there until January 1st of the new year.  I incorporated this gratitude jar into my life about three years ago.  I try to increase the number each year.  I feel that I was doing really well until June.  Then, I fell off that habit.  I am uncertain as to why.  I do know that the jar is lacking compared to other years.  And it isn't about not being thankful.  This year has been lovely with ample opportunities to be thankful.  Travel returned to my life.  Mostly to New Mexico but I love road tripping and treating myself to green chile.  I met a man who wanted to be my partner.  He chose me.  It has been wonderful getting to know him and figure out how to make this work.  

Business continues to evolve and change.  I have to be patient.  Life happens.  People experience injury, sickness, pregnancy, loss.  I cannot plan for those life changing events.  I can only offer my services when people are ready to do them.  

It is similar with my decision to work out with my trainer or not.  When I began training with Courtney, I was attending sessions three times a month.  I hit my goal and then tapered off.  Twice a month.  Once a month.  I even took a leave of absence for about three months to reflect on the why I wanted to have a trainer.  I know this is typical and acknowledge it is the same with yoga.  Things fluctuate.  Interests change.  Covid did help establish an online presence.   

Then, things reopened.  People could travel (thankfully).  Go to the gym or choose to take their workouts outside.  I understand it since my interests have changed, too.  I hope to promote good vibes and retain some of my clients.  I hope to expand my circle as well.  I believe my purpose is to share my love of yoga with others.  

Good vibes only.  Smile through it and choose to live in a positive fashion.

Happy Monday!

New week.  New opportunities to make a change.  It is true.  We attract what we focus on.  I have been pondering another job to supplement my yoga business and now I am inundated with opportunities.  Free lancing, blogging, retail, catering.... all good things.  I believe it is good to challenge and continue to grow.  Energetically, we all outgrow where we currently are.  Or we should strive to do that.  Being stagnant is not ideal.  Do you want to be in the exact same place you were a year ago?  Six months ago?  Even five years ago?

I know that I do not.  I believe in learning and evolving.  I think about everything I have added to my life by embarking on entrepreneurship.  Yes, there are still many things I need to master and learn.  I am open to it.  I am no longer willing to just wait and see what happens.  I am confident in creating graphics and content.  I tend to gravitate to that or writing.  The admin and technical stuff elude me.  Or I procrastinate until I am forced to confront it.  I know I need a better system in place.  I cannot avoid doing the administrative tasks.  They will not magically disappear.

Brie and I are meeting for a walk in a few hours.  She always inspires me to consider what else I can be doing.  The restaurant industry has been an amazing tool to have.  I have met multiple lifelong friends while working at a pub in Denver.  Of course, I never saw that happening.  

Restaurants are a natural first job in high school or college.  Networking, learning more about the world/food/people while developing soft skills.  I have friends in the health industry who all swear by how effective techs, nurses, aides are if they first worked in a restaurant.  They know how to identify importance and have urgency to get the job done.  Multi-tasking is quickly developed.  

Each time I have tried to leave the restaurants, somehow, I get pulled back in.  I enjoy many aspects of it too much.  The social interaction, meeting people and access to food.  There are downsides to it, too.  Eating (inhaling food to refuel), long hours, physical demands which can take a toll on a body.  It can be challenging to find that balance of sweetness and resistance.  The flexibility has always been the most attractive aspect for me.  You can hustle for a few months and then take time to travel or focus on something else in your life.  

Today will be a beautiful day and start to the week.  I finally ordered a few items for xmas.  I am not in a funk like some people I know.  I dislike the idea of going to a store to shop for items.  I am too minimalistic, or experience driven to participate fully.  I wanted stocking stuffers for Tom and a few other mandatory items.  I see a Jayhawk shirt in his future.  

Take time to make it a great day.  Contemplate and reflect on what 2023 will bring for you. This year has flown by.  Time to think about how to improve your reality for next year.

Saturday thoughts

Happy Saturday!  It is a beautiful day in Denver.  First Saturday of yoga at the St. Paul.  Last year, we moved inside in November.  This year, we were able to continue to practice outdoors with the kindness of one of my clients.  He has a backyard fireplace and heater.  Truly, it made yoga approachable and welcoming without practicing on grass.  We were fine until last weekend when it was 20 degrees outside.  We all bundled up--hoodies, socks, ear coverings.  We built heat, eventually, but my feet refused to stay warm.

I think it will be a great day.  Or I will smile through it.  No more complacency or waiting for things to happen.  Today, is the day to start.  Money will always be there, but time cannot be replaced.  We cling to this idea that we have to remain in situations that no longer serve us.  Be it, friendships, jobs, location.  Why?  How do we benefit from this idea?  Wouldn't it be preferable to try something different?  Challenge ourselves to do something greater than we think we are capable of doing.  

Put yourself out there.  Consider what your life purpose is.  Not what school or your parents told you.  Instead, truly reflect within and see what speaks to you.  I am working on trying to be more visible on social media.  I have attempted to create content and yoga clients by posting relative posts without illustrating why I want to share yoga.  Finally, I posted a video, and it is getting some traction.  I didn't have any bites on taking me up on the zoom offer, but it is a start.  Something I intend to build upon.  I wonder why it took me so long to discover that option?  Why I was so unwilling to utilize that platform with videos of me?  

I do not need to talk in the video.  It is mostly an opportunity to show a sample sequence and my style.  It was as if a light bulb went off, finally. I should be making the most of resources that are available.  I have been fortunate.  Word of mouth has been a fantastic tool to attract clients.   I am thankful for that.  Yet, I know that I could be doing more.  My service is to share yoga with others and continue to learn myself.  Forever a student on this journey.

I am finetuning my goals, habits, desires.  Becoming clear with my intentions.  No longer listening to ideas but taking little to no action. They say that you manifest where you are now.  Where do you want to be in six months?  Ten months?  A year?  

I want to be relying on myself as an entrepreneur.  Spending time enhancing my practice and business.  Supplementing to a certain degree but only if it encourages focus on yoga.  

I should conclude this for now.  It is mostly about being consistent and disciplined.  I am off to share yoga!

Reflections and habits

Taking a few days off from the social aspect (day drinking with friends) inspires me to return to my roots.  Reflection, writing, being mindful.  My sleep quality increases, and I wake up, energized.  

I think I get this way during this time of year.  Looking back at things that worked, didn't work and how to improve.  I can wallow in the complacency of the familiar or continue to evolve.  I feel so much more reflective, this year.  Truer to how things are instead of creating situations that make me appear better.  Does that make sense?

I keep returning to the conversation with the mechanic.  I wanted to choke him out but knew it would not accomplish anything.  I wanted to reason with him and give him the opportunity to do right by his product, ultimately me.  I was prepared to work with him on future projects and knew that if I could take the emotion out of it, I would be ok.  

As he sat across from me with his arms tightly crossed, it was apparent that not only was he defensive (emotional) but unwilling to see the fault in his work.  He could not separate the emotions.  Instead of continuing to deal with him, I left.  I didn't flip out.  Cuss him out or kick anything.  In the past, I think I could have reacted in that manner.  Maybe not kicking anything but lowering myself into the attack realm.  I am known to drop the CS frequently.  If you know, you know.

I think I am mellowing with age.  And no longer caring what other people think.  Why does it take years to recognize that?  That the majority of people are not thinking about you.  Instead, they are thinking about their own situation and issues.  Do not take things personally.  Isn't that one of the four agreements?  I try to stay in that zone.  Recognize that people's reactions are about them.  It does not reflect on what they think of me or what I am doing.  

I keep seeing posts on IG about frequencies, astrology, energy.  I allowed myself to follow a link that resonated somewhat with me.  It mentioned a shadow energy and how I can get caught up on thinking I know what other people are thinking if they are not responding to me.  I must stop doing this.  Truly.  They are absorbed with their own reality.  They are unconcerned with how things are affecting me.  

Moving forward, I want to think about improving daily.  Even if it is .000001%.  Compounding that enables change and progress.  A resolution in the making.  If you need a little more motivation to do this, read Atomic Habits.  I think I may re-read it in the next few weeks.  It reinforces that habits are easier to build as opposed to pursuing goals.  I had never considered it that way.  I can strive to attain a goal.  I achieve it and then I am let down about what to focus on next.  Ultimately, I return to poor habits after I achieve a goal.

Building habits=a routine.  Waking up and drinking lemon water or juicing.  Allowing the natural detox to rid yourself of toxins.  Meditating or moving.  A man that I listened to on a podcast wakes up, daily at 4 am.  From here, he meditates for an hour (minimally), then does 111 burpees and completes his routine with sun salutations.  Eventually, he turns on his devices but not until he has centered himself.  I am not that disciplined.  Slowly, I am building and attempting a purer start to my day.  Less technology/distraction and more focus.  I am all for sun salutations.  I even attempted to teach a sunrise class this morning via zoom.  No bites, yet.  But it will happen.  Next Thursday, I will roll out another video and opportunity to flow.  Hopefully, I will gain confidence with putting myself out there.

I am heading to see my trainer and continue this positive energy.  Make it a great day!

Smling through it

I listened to a podcast earlier where the host said, even in times of stress or anger--smile through it.  For example, someone cuts you off.  Instead of cursing the person, smile.  Or you miss out on an opportunity or in more severe cases, your job.  Again, smile though it.  I guess, with hindsight, sure, smiling though it could work.  Yet, how often is that the default response?

I am a little road ragey--I can admit it.  Sometimes, I refrain from completely losing it on someone.  Mostly, as I do not know how they will react.  Yell, flip me off, follow me or the worst-case scenario, try to harm me.  

He did have a few valid points still.  Instead of dwelling in that negative frequency, smiling, would promote moving forward quicker.  You might avoid depression, anxiety, problems with sleep by focusing on the positive as opposed to lingering in the negative, ultimately, being a victim.  That was my takeaway.  How can I improve my situation and not be overridden with fear, doubt, anxiety?  

I was in a hurry to return to Denver from Santa Fe.  I had to work at the restaurant and didn't want to get stuck along 1-25.  I suppose that thought lingered in my mind that my car was not safe and that I was uncertain to return in a timely manner.  Driving at night and getting stuck somewhere did not seem appealing.  

Since I rushed back, I lost sight of some of the positivity.  Allowed my emotions to lurk in the victim mode.  The mechanic wasn't honest about the car he refurbished (I still know this.  He was not honest about the condition of the car and made no attempt to correct the situation.  His karma, not mine.), it was unfortunate that I got trapped in New Mexico (which was ridiculous, as I was safe and had shelter.  Even encouraged to stay longer), and what would I do if I didn't make it back to work at the restaurant?  Would they understand my situation or be irritated?

The desires to return to work and my routine overwhelmed me.  I can work anywhere in the world. I have my phone and am able to teach with that device.  Of course, having my laptop would secure the likelihood of my working from wherever, whenever I choose. I forced myself to hurry back only to find out that they didn't need me.  I created this story.  No one else participated in it.  It was all very woe is me, negative and stagnant.  Perhaps, had I smiled through it, I would have rebounded quicker.

My car did pass emissions.  I am back in Denver--safe, healthy and teaching.  I have ideas for 2023 and opportunities today.  Maybe smiling through it is more productive.  I hope to try this as situations out of my control develop.  It truly is about mindset and how you choose to react.  

Productivity and positivity

Happy Monday!  It is a gorgeous day in Denver.  For some reason, I woke up feeling productive and have managed to continue this trend throughout the day.  Clean house, handle some business (unsuccessfully due to the other person's character, but I did try to do the right thing), finish graphics for newsletter, email newsletter, teach an a.m. class and afternoon session, walk city Park, print fliers and now blogging.  It has been a minute since I have felt so capable and inspired.

I did listen to a few podcasts, too. about focusing on the positive.  Perhaps that is why I have been productive.  I didn't allow the shitty energy of the earlier interaction to linger or suck me in further.  Yes, I am disappointed in the results.  Yet, I reiterate that it speaks more about the person's integrity than mine.  

One of the podcasts pointed out mindset, energy and focus.   Instead of dwelling in lower radiating frequencies--fear, anger, doubt, shame--flip your perspective and be positive.  I think the podcast truly helped me avoid a yelling match.  Don't get me wrong, I would enjoy punching this person in the throat.  But that is more of a fantasy and highly unlikely to happen.  I knew that walking into the establishment.  I wanted to be able to keep emotion out of it and reason with the person.   Unfortunately, some people are unreasonable.

Enough of that.  I plan on improving my situation by being positive and open to the universe.  And, I have a pretty good life.  I am supported as was obvious when my car broke down in Springer, NM.  It happened at a truck stop.  I contacted my mechanic in Santa Fe on a Sunday, and he called me.  The tow was arranged and taken care of by roadside assistance.  Tom picked me up and drove me back to Santa Fe.  The car was fixed or so I thought.  When I picked it up and headed north to Denver, I received a message on my dashboard about emergency service.

Again, I managed to make it back to Santa Fe without breaking down or being stranded.  Thankfully.  The car needed an alternator and a few other parts to make it drivable.  I could stay with Tom.  Supported, again.  We watched soccer, KU basketball, beer and many meals.  He made me feel very comfortable and not draining his life.

I did make it back, eventually.  I have shelter, clean water, my health....many, many things to be thankful for.  So, sometimes, I face obstacles and depending on my mindset create more challenges or difficulties.  I am finally understanding that.  I choose to be positive and focused on abundance.

Make it a great day and final month of 2022.  Choose your mindset, wisely.

choosing my life and possessions

I have always been a minimalist.  Possibly since cleaning my mom's house, weekly, was the bane of my existence.  She had numerous knickknacks, collectibles, etc.  So many things to dust and clean.  I knew that I would never have a home that had a ton of shit to clean.  I love my mom.  I do.  But, she had so much shit to clean that it scarred me for life.

As an adult, my home reflects the life of a college student.  I am spartan.  I have a wine cabinet that I purchased with Brian in 2003.  We purchased it from Cost Plus and it has moved from rental to rental, state to state.  My current dresser was a hand me down from a neighbor.  I painted it and made it mine.  I have a hand me down couch and end table from my landlord.  Tiffany gifted me a coffee table, random decor, coffee mugs and spices.  Lindsay gave me her guest bed and table.  Basically, I am given the decor in my home with the exception of artwork.  I take pride in my eclectic taste.  I enjoy Frieda Kahlo, Diego Rivera, Van Gogh and a local Santa Fe artist, Clayton Peshlakai who I have bought a metal butterfly from.  It is my most prized possession.  My last mid-decade birthday of note, I bought the butterfly and had a Van Gogh print framed.  I had no idea how much it cost to custom frame a print.  Brian and I went to Amsterdam in 2003.  After walking through the Van Gogh Museum, we came across the Crows at Auvers.  Such a beautiful painting.  I picked up a print in 2016 and it remained in my closet til I opted to have it framed.  

I only bring awareness to my habits since I have been hosting yoga sessions in my apartment.  Sure, I should probably be more accomplished in the decor.  One of my clients commented on this last night.  He was kind in his approach, but it was awkward.  Forced me to reconsider why I choose to live this way.  I told him that I was a spartan since I have moved a bunch in my life.  I pack my car and go.  This is true.  I moved from Denver to Phoenix, Phoenix to Santa Fe, and Santa Fe back to Denver.  I have never hired a U-Haul in my life.  

I refuse to apologize for my decisions.  It has enabled an abundance of travel, experiences and memories.  And, when I move again, it will be easy.  I never wanted to be bogged down with stuff.  I do believe it all goes back with the childhood home and having to clean it.  My mom's home was lovely.  We had a front room that was meticulously vacuumed.  White carpet.  It was where they would greet guests.  No one else ever went into that room.  Ever.  It was set up for show.  Not to be used by children.

I feel like a David Sedaris short story about growing up in the 70's and his mom kicked them out of the house when they had consecutive snow days.  Have you read that short story?  His mom was frustrated that her kids were interfering with her days when they were at school.  She couldn't cocktail, watch her programs or relax.  Instead, she was forced to handle her kids during the snow days until she kicked them outside.  This still makes me chuckle.  My mom wasn't a day drinker, but she did enjoy her days alone.  She could read, do chores, reflect.  Basically, have time to herself which we all relish.

I slept like shit last night.  Obsessing over my lack of things.  Silly, as I actively, have chosen this lifestyle.  I prefer experiences to stuff.  I would like a few more plants and can figure that out. In all honesty, I am happy with my choices.  Some doubts occur when I expose myself to people that do not know my choices.  I feel inferior, briefly.  Until I remember my around the world trip. 14 trips per year until Covid and even now.  My decision to road trip to Santa Fe often.  I have a great life.  I will not apologize for my lack of decor to make people feel at ease.  It has been my choice.  I am happy.

Staying the path. Choosing to

I hate waking up in the middle of the night.  Typically, I am able to fall back asleep to some degree.  Last night, it evaded me.  I woke up at midnight and struggled to fall back asleep.  I kept looking at my phone to see what time it was. 1:18. 1:45.  2:30.  3:15.  It was painful.  

This continued until 5:30 when I had set an alarm to wake up.  I had agreed to teach an a.m. yoga class at 6:15.  At this point, I received simultaneous text messages to contact me about not being able to do the class due to work and sick kiddo.  I got up and tried to get comfortable on my couch.  I put on a show to provide some noise and managed to sleep for about an hour and a half.  

I look forward to being able to sleep tonight.  A light nap, shower and lots of water.  For me, if I do not get adequate sleep or hydration, I tend to get laryngitis.  It has happened multiple times and each encounter seems to worsen and extend.  I am exhausted.  I attempted a few sleep meditations but to no avail.  It has been an awful 24 hours.

I think I am overthinking.  I try to relax and stop the racing mind.  Any suggestions on how to counter this?  There is a movie that recently came out that is similar to the Secret. I signed up to view it but almost immediately, realized that it was not speaking to me.  I read a few reviews and felt that it had received mixed feedback.  I tried to stay interested.  Truly, I wanted to be inspired.  Perhaps, I missed out on something.  I do not feel like I did.

Instead, it motivated me to reflect on things that have helped me in the past.  Journaling.  Meditating.  Blogging.  It is easy to get bogged down in a negative head space.  Believe me.  I have questioned my decision to pursue my passion.  Is it the right choice?  Am I doing the right thing?  What else could I be doing?  How do I not let my thoughts race at night?  Should I return to a more normal employment?  

I spoke to Shari about her decision to buy an RV and tour the United States.  She has had doubts of distress and discouragement, too.  I told her it was normal when we embark on alternative paths that do not make sense to others in our life.  I feel that I speak from experience as the last two years have been challenging.  Then, I remember my why.  Why I chose to embark on this path.  Why I will continue to stay on this path.  

I am hopeful for a full night of sleep.  I need it.  I know that I am unable to go to sleep before 9:30.  Otherwise, I will wake up, again, in the middle of the night.  I cannot have consecutive nights of lousy sleep.  Tomorrow, I see my trainer which will require energy.  The idea of being unsinkable can help.  Maybe the movie should have focused more on how to be unsinkable.  Maybe it did after twenty minutes.  There was no hook for me.  I saw my interest dwindling and so I returned to what makes me tick.  Journaling.  Meditating.  And, blogging.  

I hope you have a wonderful rest of your night.  Find your purpose and stay the course.

CELEBRATIONS AND PODCASTS

Happy Thursday!  What a beautiful day.  And, it is my nephew's birthday.  He is six today!  I saw him on a zoom call, last night, and tried to tell him happy birthday.  He was having no part of it.  He is such a stinker.

Life is grand, right?  I suppose it is what we make of it.  It can be inspiring.  Challenging.  Hard.  It truly is how you start that your day that determines how you will feel or what you may encounter.  

I have been listening to more podcasts lately.  Some political, some manifestation, inspiring and recently, Ear Hustle.  I have heard about this podcast in the past.  I think I wrote it down, somewhere.  There are so many podcasts out there.  I could go down the rabbit hole of the Daily, Vox, This American Life.  I know there are episodes that I should avoid as they will trigger the rabbit hole.  Still, I have been listening to more of the political podcasts to assess how we are at this current spot.  I have enjoyed watching some of the debates between candidates.  Watching how they react to the questions and trying to stay on message in spite of the others trying to force them into a spontaneous reaction.  You can tell a lot of prep work went into it to eliminate that chance.  They seem robotic.

I hope that you vote and that you aren't turned off by the proposed apathy.  There are several reasons to feel that way.  However, it is your right to have your voice heard.  

Tom is visiting me tomorrow and I am thankful.  At first, I wanted to venture down to Santa Fe.  Test out the new Volvo and see how Freya does on the drive down.  Then, I remembered it was his turn to explore Denver.  I see H Mart and a few other asian markets on the horizon.  Possibly a stroll down Federal or Alameda to discover more of the ethnic foods.  The other night, Brie and I met for a quick supper.  Instead of heading to Cherry Creek or downtown, we opted for a Thai spot near my house.  Even with a bottle of wine, it was still affordable.  I appreciated that we enjoyed fantastic food and wine and didn't break the bank.

There I go--speaking in limiting beliefs.  I am trying to retrain my subconscious mind to eliminate the negativity and limiting thoughts.  There are ample resources.  I know this and it helps me when I struggle to find the way forward.  Sometimes, working for yourself is not all that.  Most times.  It is challenging to not obsess on the why's or how to's.   Sometimes, you must believe it and allow it to happen.

I will celebrate this weekend with Tom.  I like showing him more of Denver.  Perhaps find some time for yoga, too.

Cheers to the 27th!  Celebrate, enjoy and taste life~

Cali travel

Santa Barbara delivers.  I had little doubt that I would have a lovely weekend in the city.  Thankfully, my travel companion, also, enjoyed my choices in food, beverage and decision to walk everywhere.  

He arrived before I did and figured out the bus schedule.  Instead of taking an uber into town, we paid $3.50 for the two of us to travel into the city.  Forty-five minutes later, and we were off.  State St. was busy on Saturday!  Lots of people checking out the eateries and shopping.  We found a spot that offered wine and snacks before heading to check in to the hotel.  There was a public hall that Tom was interested in as well.  Conveniently, it was located a couple blocks from the hotel.  Great natural light and ample space to explore.  I had a glass of wine.  

Afterwards, we checked into the hotel.  A boutique spot that hosted happy hour, daily.  I am a fan of that.  In addition, they had a continental breakfast if we were so inclined.  That lacked in my opinion.  They did have coffee, available, early in the mornings.  I had had my eye on a lebanese restaurant. I found that they had a sister restaurant that was more casual and so we walked towards that location.  Unfortunately, they were only open for takeout which was not listed on their website.  Instead of choosing that option, we returned to the initial decision of checking out Zaytoon.  Busy restaurant.  Thankfully, they were able to get us in after a 30 minute wait.  We stopped by another spot for a glass of wine while we waited.  It was cute, authentic and had we had more time, it would have been explored.  

Dinner that night included lentil soup and a trio kebab with hummus, baba ghanoosh and garlic dip.  It was tasty.  The cocktails were spot on and the atmosphere was lovely.  We returned to the hotel room to conclude our first night.  Sunday morning, we opted to walk to the pier.  Beautiful day to be on the beach.  Of course, the majority of those restaurants are tourist driven.  Shrimp cocktail, clam chowder (sort of a must since we were in California) and french fries.  Fun little combination.  Walking back up State St, we stopped at a winery so that I could purchase a gift for my friends who were getting married before checking out guacamole at Carlito's.  It was fine.  Under seasoned, but I saw the attraction and understood how it was appealing to most people.  

We were able to check out quite a bit of food and drink.  The wedding was gorgeous.  My friends chose a beautiful venue to celebrate their love.  Unbelievably beautiful spot.  We had dinner, cocktails and danced.  

Monday, we returned to the beach so we could walk in the sand.  I wanted to feel the sensation of the cool sand and water.  Lovely.  We found a mezcal driven restaurant and checked out the halibut ceviche and guacamole.  The ceviche was delicious.  Guacamole, under seasoned.  I did like how they served salsa with chips and a black bean salsa.  Carlito's and Santos both did this. Nice addition to the chips.  Probably my favorite food of the trip was Monday.  We returned to Public House to explore the tacos at Corazon.  I ordered pastor and ensenada (battered fish).  I was thankful for my choices!

So, everything was going well.  Great food, easy travel and a very manageable trip.  We found our way back to the airport.  Tom had a connecting flight in Phoenix while I had a direct flight back to Denver.  My flight departed at 4 pm.  His was scheduled for 4:45.  Midday, he received a notice that the flight from Phoenix to Albuquerque was delayed.  

I made it home around 9 pm.  I needed to find take out and uber it back to central Denver.  Tom texted me around midnight that his flight had boarded.  I think nothing of it.  6 am, he texts to update me on his lack ok travel.  He was in Phoenix, overnight, since his flight canceled.  Then, he is told he could fly to ABQ, today, at 7:30 pm with a connection at LAX.  Sounds terrific, right?  He inquires about the likelihood of connecting in Denver.  Yes, that is an available option if he agrees to land in Santa Fe.  Of course, that is doable since he lives there.  However, he would still have to pick up his car.  I call this the Shari return flight of travel when she travels with me.  More than once, she has gotten stranded or had to make alternate arrangements.  Tom suggested that next time, we travel together.  Either he drives up here or I meet him in Santa Fe so we can both feel the pain of missed connections.

All, in all, great trip and I am very grateful to have done it.  Thankful to have met Rachel, years back at the Humboldt wine bar.  I randomly walked in and we struck up a conversation.  Four and a half years later, and I am attending their wedding.  It was a beautiful wedding and trip.  

Whirlwind

Productive view days...finding a car, having it checked out and purchasing.  It was sort of nuts.  As my emissions test was looming and need to update my tags, I knew that I needed to figure out a solution.  As much as I loved my Volvo wagon, Calliope (she was a sporty, boxy, safe vehicle), I was unwilling to purchase a new transmission.  The used cost of this part two years ago was $2300.  Even then, I wasn't inclined to have the repair done.  Fast forward to six months ago.  I am told that I would need a transmission and that the cost had increased to $4500.  A used transmission.  That is if they could find one.  Multiple mechanics told me that a used transmission might not be a great fix.  That transmission would have issues of its own; thereby, the fix could be minimal.  Pay $4500 for the part, not the labor included.  Then, the transmission could function for a month?  Two months?  Six months?  They suggested purchasing a Volvo transmission for the grand price of $7500.  Sounds like a great idea???

I finally called around to see what my options were as I saw my window of opportunity closing.  One of my mechanics said that they had nothing in stock.  While the other mechanic mentioned that he had recently refurbished a wagon and that it was available nearby.  I called the dealer and attempted to set up a viewing.

24 hours later, I had purchased the car and traded in Calliope.  I cannot believe that I did this.  It feels like a whirlwind.  One of the most positive outcomes of purchasing this car, is that I am able to drive down to Santa Fe instead of renting a car to drive down.  It has been a long ten months or relying on rental cars to make it from point A to point B.  I loved that car and would have driven it into the ground.  (Essentially, I did.  I just ran out of time and started to freak out about not being able to find a replacement).  

Tomorrow, I will head to Santa Barbara to celebrate a client/friend's wedding.  I am excited to celebrate with Rachel and Jeff.  And, it will be the first time in Santa Barbara in ten years.  A trip is overdue and I am ready to return to some sort of more normal travel routine.  It is a part of my life.  I love traveling.  I mentioned to Shari an opportunity to go to Mexico in January.  The more we discuss it, the more likely it is becoming.

It has been a productive week and month, overall.  There are a few administrative tasks that I must attend to in the next few weeks.  No more putting these things off.  The new laptop should help. 

I have noticed that writing things on my whiteboard is helping.  I can cross them off and see the win.

Happy October

New laptop. New opportunities to write and share.  Opportunity to vote--doesn't it feel great?  We all should do our part.  More than ever, your voice matters.  

After 2016, I did feel discouraged.  Then, I watched a senate run off in 2020 that determined control of the senate.  Your vote does matter.  

I received my mail in ballot yesterday.  And, I love it!  Living in Colorado where voting is made easy.  (as it should be.  People should not be making it challenging or difficult to cast a vote).  I urge you to take the time to vote.

Indian summer in Denver.  My absolute favorite time of year.  Warmer days and cooler nights.  Possibility to harvest the seeds you have planted.  Or consider how you can change your mindset to achieve goals.  I have been offering a yoga happy hour, monthly, which I hope to continue to offer.  I love it.  I love the idea of connecting people and building community.  As much as I love this, it is difficult, at times.  Injury, travel, other set backs which limit offering this unique class.  I spoke with a fellow entrepreneur and he made me doubt myself. Perhaps, not intentionally.  But, he did question some of my decisions. Suggested that I attend a yoga class to see what others are offering.

That was laughable.  I have been practicing yoga since 2001.  Not that I don't appreciate attending classes and seeing what is out there.  Yet, for what I am offering, it isn't about yoga.  I want to differentiate myself from other classes by incorporating movement and time to build community.  This includes light appetizers and wine. I am not going to learn how to market myself by attending a yoga class.

And, there are variables that are out of my control.  I have to marinate in this decision to seek an unconventional path.  But, when have I not been unconventional? That is something else that this person does not recognize or acknowledge.

He did give me a few valid things to ponder and consider.  Maybe I should offer another donation based class, weekly?  Or, perhaps, I could offer a yoga session at my apartment?  I am unwilling to give up.  I want to make this work.  Things I have been avoiding (website), it's time to face and do.  I have the foundation built.  Only lack the desire to follow through.

I hope you are enjoying your October and making it the best it can possibly be.  Cheers to you!

Some agreements

Be authentic with who you are and where you want to be.  It is easy to become complacent and okay with where things stand if you allow them to.  Or, you can choose to strive for more than a mediocre existence.  

I suppose I am waxing nostalgic as I am trying to decide which path I want to be on.  I know that I am dedicated to being an entrepreneur even when it feels that I am on an uphill battle.  Maybe not battle.  That seems too strong of a word.  It is challenging to continue on this path as it is lonely.  Sometimes, strangers seem more supportive than friends and family.  And, as much as people are supportive and excited for my ideas, events remain inconsistent and small.  I feel that I am doing something unique and I love teaching.  I remind myself of that often.  There are tasks that I do not enjoy or even like.  I force myself to do them at the last possible moment. I still have some admin to attend to from June.  I must get better about those tasks.  

In other areas, I am improving and continuing to learn.  I like creating graphics.  At first, they were intimidating.  It took me forever to compose a newsletter or flier and I was terrified of deleting all of the content.  Terrified.  I would focus only on that task and refused to multi-task or stream shows in the background.  

Now, I feel comfortable and not afraid of starting over.  I think following other people or familiarizing myself with brands that looked popping, helped inspire me to have clean branding.  I stopped by the happy hour yoga spot and thanked them, again, for their attention to detail.  I appreciate their branding and know that it has helped me on my own journey.  I want my fliers to make sense and supply all of the relevant information that I am trying to get across.

There was a reason that I wanted to embark on this.  I know that I can do it.  Keep it moving forward.  Any interaction can be an opportunity to learn and benefit.  That has been the lesson of the last few months.  And, how important it is to be consistent.  That has been a cornerstone of my teachings since I embarked on this.  This path that continues to shine, engage and be unconventional.  That is my why.  Remain on the unconventional path.  I want to prove it is achievable.

Reflections

Waking up today and choosing my mindset.  I have been attempting to commit to me being my own boss for the last two years.  Parts of it are fantastic.  More flexibility (in my mind that is.  In reality, there are tasks daily that I must attend to.  The only person who makes me accountable is me.  I struggle to remember that at times.  Instead of completing the admin, I will meet friends for wine lunch.  Postino is a delightful distraction, lol). I have been fortunate. The majority of my clients have been word of mouth.  I am very blessed in that department.

Yet, in order to expand and build, I am trying to do more to attract clients.  I have collaborated with others.  Contributed to silent item auctions by offering my services for an individual or group session.  I have tried to offer more group sessions at the park.  It truly is about being consistent, reliable, authentic and have faith.  

Collaborating with others is interesting.  As much as we all think we have the same outcome in mind, we have different roads of achieving it.  I do enjoy creating graphics and am learning to be more comfortable with social media.  I prefer everyone delivering the same message or at least staying true to the name of the event.  All things to remember when choosing to collaborate.  Shari suggested having a business journal to jot these ideas down.  I have a ledger, a journal, an idea journal and will incorporate this new journal to remember. It is all a work in progress.  

I keep returning to the four agreements.  As much as I expect others to behave in the same manner that I do, it is naive.  I feel that if I say I am going to do something, I do it.  Expecting others to be that was leads to disappointment as I am reminded when I choose to believe people will do what they say.  We all get hung up on what is best for us.

Choosing the mindset is essential.  I am seeing that more.  I have been listening to podcasts about frequency and radiating from a higher level.  I cannot achieve that if I do not push myself to elevate.  Decide to achieve more and surround myself with others who feel the same way.  I can feel people's energies radiating from them.  I know that sounds odd but it is true.  I have a friend who currently is projecting a more desperate energy, trying to attain clients and projecting on me.  It is stifling and unattractive.

Ir reminds me to have faith and believe in myself.  In that realm, it all returns to mindset.  Choosing to wake up and believe my day will be great.  And being more accountable for my choices.  I think planning out my day the night before will aid in me in productivity.  I need something to force me to be accountable and on track.  I do not want to enter the zone of desperation.  

I will continue to reflect, build and have faith.  Cheers!

Tasks and upcoming hopes

Last night, I took a night off from drinking.  In addition, I completed my meal three and a half hours before I went to bed.  I keep reading how this is beneficial to allowing your digestive organs to rest while you are sleeping as opposed to continuing to work.  Maybe there is some truth in that.

Moreover, I listened to brainwave meditation while I slept.  That helped.  It helped me turn off my brain and sleep.  I cannot tell you how many times, I have woken up multiple times because I cannot stop thinking.  All of the anxieties, fears, doubts.  It can be overwhelming.  Lately, it seems that I only think of things that could go wrong.  Inherently, I know that I am ok and will continue to be fine.  I think it is my subconscious trying to persuade me to return to the service industry.  I have attempted it in the past and always failed to break completely away.  It is too comfortable to return to the flexibility.  

Another cooler day in Denver.  It feels awesome.  After about seven weeks of heat, I am ready for a reprieve.  My classes are spaced out throughout the day.  Instead of running errands, I am choosing to prep for classes this weekend, my upcoming newsletter. some creative outlets and then taking another day off from drinking.  My sleep is improving and I feel that I should take a detox break.  June and July were both larger than life months.  Trips to Santa Fe, Kansas and Washington State.  Friends visiting me a few times in Santa Fe.  Basically, a lot of celebrating and rich food.  I am all for that.  Yet, it catches up with me.  I need to take breaks from rich food and drinking to feel normal in my diet.  

Shari and I spoke about the possibility of the half marathon in Paso Robles. We agreed we should delay it.  Neither of us has been running much (or at all).  Not to mention, she is adjusting to RV life and being more nomadic.  Running is not in her regime as of yet.  Plus, I will be in California a few times in the next six months.  A wedding in October then celebrating Brian's anniversary in Palm Springs in February.  I have another wedding in Wichita Falls in March.  I think I am making up for not traveling much after March 2020.  What a dire few years.  Flying last weekend reminded me how much I enjoy traveling, experiencing new cities and meeting new people.  I love Denver and the life I have here.  Yet, I have been missing that component of creativity and experiencing new foods.  I would have been so disappointed in myself if I had chosen to skip Jean's 60th birthday celebration.  Not only did it motivate more travel but I also was able to celebrate with one of my oldest friends.  There is no way that I would have been able to replicate that experience.  We are considering a trip to Hawaii or perhaps, San Miguel de Allende in 2023.  We shall see.

I have missed making time to write.  I write letters and journal sometimes.  I need to make more of an effort to fulfill that need.  

Returning from my mini break

Leaning into the life that you want....starting to make space for it.  I love that I am listening to a podcast today, perusing pinterest for yoga marketing ideas and contemplating my next moves.  I cannot believe that I was blogging, frequently, and making progress with it to completely drop it.  Why?

Today, I will make an effort to return to the structure of blogging daily.  I enjoy it.  Maybe I have been floundering a little bit.  It is challenging to stay the course when money seems stagnant.  Or, maybe not stagnant but ever changing.  Clients vacation, have illness, loss in the family, injury and changing schedules.  I believe I will be fine.  Actually, I know this.  However, as schedules continue to change, I sometimes question if I am on the right path.

It is true that the WHY is the most important thing to determine when you choose to do your own thing.  Of course, it is always easier to return to your comfort zone.  I could easily return to the restaurant industry tomorrow, full time.  Yet, it is not what I want to be doing.  I want to be working for myself, sharing my love of yoga and meeting new people.  I have always been a connector but I want to elevate that.  I truly want to connect people who would never meet in any other circumstance without attending a yoga class. I am sure I could explain it in another way.  I like that I attract an eclectic mix of people who meet and make connections.  There.  That sounds better.

What is next?  There are so many resources out there to figure out how to continue on this path.  I have arranged a pop up in Denver and Santa Fe, monthly.  It is gaining momentum and it feels great.  It takes planning, effort and consistency.  I must stay committed to the discipline of what I need to be doing.  Reading more.  Teaching.  Blogging.  Creating content and continuing to learn.  Be authentic and genuine.  I know these things but I still go slow with what I am doing.  I must think bigger.

I have hesitated to handle my website.  I have a free website being designed.  The hesitation is the content that I want on it.  It is all on me.  I will stop being stagnant.  

Sorry this is a little of a rant.  I need a creative outlet and have forgotten how much I enjoy blogging.  My summer has been wonderful.  Many trips to Santa Fe.  Lunches at La Choza, pop up park yoga, meeting new people.  Building my business and planting seeds.  

Thank you for enabling me to vent and be a little nonsensical.  I am going to lean into the life that I want.  It is time.

Live your best life

Woke up to some snow.  Not the amount that they were projecting but I think there are areas around the metro area that did get quite a bit of wet snow.  I know one of my friends had a tree that was destroyed.  She lives in the Foothills where the snow was more prominent.

It's crazy how some days I can be very energized when teaching.  Like I want to bounce around my apartment or wherever I am teaching.  It is sort of nuts.  Initially, I only felt that this happened when I was not drinking.  However, the last few times it has happened, I have been enjoying beverages the previous night.  

Maybe it is a choice.  I choose to be full of energy and express it when I am teaching.  I need to plan my upcoming happy hour class, It is Tuesday, May 24th, at a retail shop on East Colfax.  I believe it will be great.  More people seem interested and the tribe is expanding.  I believe in what I am trying to accomplish.  

This is crazy that we are almost to June.  I feel like this year started yesterday. There has been more growth and opportunities.  Some heartbreak, frustration, conflict.  I know that I must figure out a car option at some time within the next six to eight months.  What is the best route?  Selling it outright?  Using a service to do it?  Trading it in?  

Today, my friend, Wes, asked me why I was so committed to Volvos,  Mostly, it is what I know.  I am comfortable with my mechanics.  I have multiples of them and have a rapport.  Starting over with a different vehicle would require new mechanics. And, I know what I am getting when thinking about purchasing a Volvo. A stable, safe car.  It can be sexy like my sedan was.  I loved that car. A two door sedan that had italian leather interior and all sorts of swagger.  I loved that car.

Unfortunately, I was t-boned on Super Bowl Sunday which ended that love affair.  It was not worth it to try to piece that car back together.  

I could try to go carless.  I could try.  I do not think it would be in my best interest.  I do enjoy having a car, being independent and capable.  I think I will take some time to think about exactly what I want.  Then, make it happen.

Trying to be more productive and establish a routine.  I have some opportunities.  My website is in the midst of getting developed, upcoming happy hour, park sessions in Denver and Santa Fe and the desire to think outside the box.  I do have other upcoming travel,  Trips for wine festivals and a bourbon trail.  I am loving life right now.  Maybe I can squeeze in a few more trips.

Currently

A few days in Santa Fe.  Then, home to snow.  And, honestly, after being in New Mexico, we desperately need moisture.  I should be rejoicing that it is snowing in Denver and encouraging more.  We went from 90 degrees to 40.  What a pendulum swing.

Lots of things to think about and plan.  My car, Calliope, has been a great vehicle.  About a year ago, I started feeling the con's of owning an older vehicle.  New battery in February.  New alternator/battery in April.  Bevel and angler in June.  Thoughts of a new transmission and told the price tag for a used one.  

Ten months later, new transmission need is a reality.  The cost of a used transmission increased by one thousand dollars.  Or I could invest in a Volvo specific transmission for the price tag of seven grand.  Seems insane.  Yet, my mechanic in Santa Fe suggested that that would be the route to go if I want to keep Calliope.  Otherwise, buying a used transmission has its own set of issues and uncertainties.  I started looking at available cars, volvo specific, and it is frightening.  My mechanic suggested going carless.

It feels like a transition is occurring and I should embrace it.  Not be frightened by it.  See where this path leads.  I am healthy.  Thankful.  And appreciative of what is coming next.  Another trip to Santa Fe for a pop up.  A trip to Kansas for my sister's vow renewal and some time in Washington State.  I might be able to manage a trip to Mexico, too.  I do not want to get hung up on the cost of things.  I want to enjoy my life and participate fully.

All I can do is continue to move forward with the belief that everything will work out.  And, it will.  I have had a spectacular week.  Fantastic meals in Santa Fe, soaking at Ojo Caliente, learning many things about a new friend, walking around Stenger facility with Jenny Minard and the knowledge that I have more possibilities.  

It is snowing in Denver!  Day at home to reflect, re-center, analyze.  Upcoming travel will happen. I foresee a few trips to Santa Fe over the summer.  I am stoked.

Thankful Thursday

I am grateful for waking naturally and beginning my day.  I feel so much more productive when I do begin my day before 6 am.  I do not know why or what is motivating but already I have accomplished a few tasks while listening to John Mayer.  Yes, I am still in that head space.  Soulful, somewhat bubble gum poppish (some of the earlier music) and soothing.  

I will get ready to go for a run shortly.  Maintaining habits has been a focal part of 2022.  Not goal setting, specifically.  Forming habits and maintaining them seem to be more manageable and successful.  Why has it taken me so long to figure that out? 

Regardless, I am thankful for today and the opportunities that are available.  I will be in Santa Fe next week.  Prepping for a yoga pop up and a tour of mezcal.  I think I am just as excited to explore the mezcal scene as I am to teach.  Maybe even take a class for my own practice.  Yes, I need that inspiration for my own practice.  A giant reset button that enables refilling my own cup.  

Why do we always give, give, give and rarely attempt to replenish our own energy?  I have a friend that is going through many life changes currently.  New residence, contemplating retirement, health issues and maybe taking on more of a role for other family.  I feel for this person because there are so many variables being juggled/managed with less emphasis on what is beneficial to her.  It seems like they make a decision to handle something and than another area arises with just as much need to handle.  Sort of like whack a mole.  While managing the issues that come up, her own personal health and wellness is being neglected.  

I am thankful for access to clean water.  Incredibly grateful for that.  I wake up and want to shower immediately.  In addition, I love lemon water and hydration.  My routine is wake up, make bed, hot lemon water, juice something (lately--carrots, beets, celery, apple, lemon) and make coffee.  Afterwards, I can reflect and ensure that I have some sort of plan for tackling the day.  Today, for example, I will be going for a run shortly.  It is heating up in Denver and once it hits a certain heat index or level, my motivation to fun or be outside declines.  I foresee a hot, hot summer.  Not thrilled.  I keep praying for rain and relief.  Not only here but in New Mexico and other areas that are experiencing fires.  New Mexico is near and dear to me if you have not noticed.  It's been a few hot, smoky weeks with no end in sight.  They need rain!

What are you thankful for?  Instead of looking for problems, maybe look at what you have and be thankful.  Right now, it is imperative to find positivity and happiness. There are so many things to be uncertain about or dwell in a lower frequency vibe.  I have managed to avoid looking at the ramifications of some decisions that are trying to decrease autonomy for women.  That rabbit hole is vast and wide.  I will not sit back and allow things to be taken from me.  

On the most basic level, while I was receiving body work and taking care of myself, I thought of how this once was only offered to men.  Why cannot I take pride in having luxurious skin or enjoy sitting in a sauna?  Why are there spaces that are only operable for men?

I digress. I want to focus on the good and what makes me want to share my light.  Yoga.  Health. Travel.

Comfortable

Probably my favorite John Mayer song.  This beautiful love song of loss, new love and being comfortable (or at least to me that is what it is about).  I remember when my sister, Michaela, introduced me to him.  I think I played the CD nonstop for about six months.  

I thought of it today as I was texting a friend.  I got a body scrub today which is one of my favorite ways to self-care and focus on me.  I feel like a brand new penny after emerging from this service.  My skin feels luscious and hydrated.  

I thought of your body is a wonderland (because I felt that incredible.  But, that seems super cheesy to reference with a new friend).  Instead I made some comment about John Mayer.  That opened up an entirely new tangent.  I mentioned that I almost unleashed my inner fan girl in 2018 when I saw John Mayer sitting at the bar in Larimer Square.  I wanted to run over and gush but stopped myself.  I had just started that job I would have definitely been reprimanded for that particular move.

I asked my friend his plans for this evening and he said he was going to search youtube for John Mayer songs.  I sent him a link to Comfortable and have listened to it the last 20 minutes or so.  It is a beautiful song still.  I read some of the reviews of it and how heartbreaking some of the stories were of association.  

I do love this song.  Maybe that song will pop into my rolodex of randomness this upcoming weekend.  I think I am aware of the songs when I am at the restaurant.  

Today is my first happy hour yoga session.  I am uncertain if anyone will attend.  It's hot.  And windy.  Like starting over again.  The Detox happy hour is finally gaining traction and I realize it was all about being consistent and showing up when I said I would.  Trying new things and being open to wherever it leads.  I am not going to start being conventional now.

On that note, I was asked how often I treat myself to self-care.  I wasn't offended but then I thought about how it would sound to say--yes, I get a pedicure, facial, massage and body scrub monthly.  Or a combination of the four.  Instead, I focused on what I don't do. No manicures or coloring my hair.  I also don't wear makeup and so I can spend more money on body scrubs. I said I was a diva but limited diva.  I don't know if my friend beliecves me.

I think taking care of your skin is essential.  I will spend money to achieve this and the amount of relaxation acquired.  I am thankful for my tribe.  My tribe of friends, supporters, trainers, therapists, etc.  All of these people aid in my healing process.

I hope you get comfortable today.  I see a plethora of John Mayer songs in my future.

Productive day

It is Tuesday, right?  I am so confused about what day of the week it is.  Perhaps working that extra shift on Sunday threw me off my days.  I ran into a few friends and increased my intake of tequila shots.  It was a long night.

Today was about upcoming travel, admin and reflecting on where I am at currently.  I would like to do another SWOT and update some of the white board that I list tasks on.  Fill up my day with positive things to avoid the news and the possibility of the rabbit hole.  I met my trainer and did a mini intake.  Think reset.  We have danced around what I am trying to achieve for the last five months.  I give her a number and stay committed to it for a few weeks.  Then, I backslide.  

Restart and feel better for a little bit.  Backslide.  I am in a space that I am not super happy to be in.  Although, we both agree I look better than I thought I would.  Sometimes the number does not reflect the health.  

She had created a great sequence.  Good amount of core, legs and back.  Courtney has been my trainer since 2016.  She is familiar with my likes and dislikes.  Threw in some cardio and ropes today.  Yuck!  The ropes were how we finished the work out.  

Afterwards, I met with a financial planner to discuss some options.  I am very thankful for decisions I have made in my life.  I do not regret the amount of travel I have been fortunate to endure.  Yet, in hindsight, I wish I had paid more attention to some of my finances.  I could be in a different position.  Some of it is tied to childhood.  My mindset in regards to money.  I have had to work through all of that to gain a better perspective.  I listen to many podcasts and have read many books to reset my mindset.  Today, was beneficial since I enjoyed meeting the planner and feel confident about the decision.  

Next week, I will be in Santa Fe.  Yoga, Ojo Caliente and exploring the food scene with a chef should be enticing.  I think we are pursuing a pick your adventure type of dining experience. You know.  A beverage and a bite.  Pay.  Move on to next spot.  Another beverage and bite.  I doubt dessert will be included.  He seems more savory that sweet.

Still, I look forward to exploring the city.  I know there are new spots and older spots that I want to return to.  Pranzo, Cafe Zacatlan, La Choza (always La Choza).  Counter Culture has my favorite breakfast burrito and I have not frequented that recently.  Or DFG's  I could go for a cuban or new mexican sandwich.  They used to have the best potatas bravas.  

Now, I am hungry and excited for this upcoming adventure.  I am trying to plan a return trip in June but do not know if it will work out.  The location of the pop up is in flux and some of the communication is slow.   However, there is a reason they refer to it as the land of manana.  I can be patient and recognize that it all will work out.

Tomorrow is sunrise yoga then a body sctub.  My most favorite thing ever.

Make it a great night!

mother's day

Happy Mother's Day to all the mothers out there.  I felt fortunate to text and call a few of my favorite mothers.  I have many friends that chose to be mothers and they excel in this role.  I also appreciate that they retained their identity, their passions, and what makes them unique. 

I say this as I consider the state of this country.  What is being proposed as a reality for what it means to be a woman.  I do not want to reflect more, currently, since that rabbit hole may engulf me.

It is beautiful to choose to be a mother.  To raise a human being.  And you should not have to sacrifice yourself in the process.  A few of my clients made sure to let me know that they took me time today and I think it is amazing.  We all need to be refilling our cups.  Putting our needs, first, so we are able to share with others.  

I think I have been more reflective during the last two years.  What is this shift?  Is is all about pushing back to where we need to be going instead of returning to what we know?  Is there a better way to navigate life?  More opportunity, spirituality, health?

I picked up a book that I do not think I will be able to finish.  It relates to the rust belt and the poverty that has ensued.  I do not like the narrator's voice.  He seems too arrongant and judgmental.  Maybe, I am being judgmental.  I don't know.  I feel like I want to resist this particular author.  

I have managed to avoid most of political b.s. since I do not watch the news.  Still, I see snippets on social media.  It's all a call to action and so I probably should take one day off.  I saw something, today, where a man is running for office inspite of the fact that he killed his wife.  In his defense, his supporters say he has every right to run since he hasn't been charged yet.  WTF?  It is insanity.

I see stuff like that and I want to pull my hair out.  I start seeing red and get heated.  This does nothing for me.  Instead, I fall into the cycle that I am trying to shun.  I really do not want to go there today or ever really.  I know that it is impossible.  At some point, I will have that confrontation of my beliefs and voicing them, unapologetically.

Stand tall with where you are....as a woman, a daughter, mother, sister, friend, girl friend, partner and wife. Do not lost your light to keep the waters calm.

Yoga, clean eating and excess

Happy Saturday!  I am finding that I love the opportunity to teach at the Park.  It provides rejuvenation, healing and basking in the sunlight.  I love how in touch you can get while practicing outdoors. 

Slowly, momentum is growing and I am feeling better about my decision to teach yoga.  I know that I excel at bringing people together.  I regret not offering group classes earlier in my career.  There is a growing energy of the collective experience that makes it unlike any other yoga class.  Last night, I was at the restaurant and a man came in that I recognized from another local spot that I frequent often.  I could not remember his name and I was not his server.

Eventually, after hearing that his wife was unhappy with her salad, I approached the table.  I asked if they frequent said restaurant and their response was--ah, that is how we know you.  We have been trying to figure out why you looked familiar.  

From here, continuing the conversation it was revealed that I teach yoga.  They seemed interested in attending the Saturday session which I am excited about.  Also, affirmed that I need to be giving out my business card more often.  All of these things that you learn as you navigate entrepreneurship.

The detoxing cleanse is going well.  Recently, I responded to a friend that I want to find a balance between the excess and clean lifestyle.  Benefits of clean eating---productivity (overload), enhanced sleep, clears up skin, save money.  I read more and tackle tasks with a clear mind space.  Excessive habits create contacts, social interactions, creativity.  Plus, I like it.  I enjoy drinking wine at lunch.  I like mezcal.  I love gin and tonics.  If you know me, you know, that I avoided gin for fifteen plus years.  I had a terrible experience in college.   Underage and spending time with my restaurant colleagues, we went to a bar after a shift one night.  Keep in mind, I had a spanish class at 8:30 the next morning.  This class dominated my freshman year.  Five days a week at 8:30.  I would walk to campus which was about a mile away.  I refused to live on campus.

So, I am out with my co-workers.  Drinking who knows what.  I imagine vodka at the juncture in my life.  Some brilliant person decides to buy my a shot of gin. Graciously, I take it because I was enjoying spending time with my colleagues.  

I remember vomiting in the women's rest room.  Then, the men's.  Not a banner moment in my life. The next morning, I woke up.  Thought I was going to die.  It was truly one of the worst hangovers I have ever experienced.  Still, I managed to attend my spanish class.  My participation was dire.  I think I bet one of my co-workers that I would make it to class.  

Oh and fun memories from college, restaurant industry and the overindulgence of alcohol.  From that night, I loathed gin.  Wouldn't touch it.  Regardless, of how much a bartender would say how the gin added a component that vodka would not, I could not enjoy gin.

I don't remember why I returned it.  Maybe, that I discovered the negroni.  Small steps. Now, I do enjoy a gin and tonic on the patio.

There is a balance and I am determined to achieve it.  Monday, I am celebrating with my friend, Brie.  We have successfully met and managed a run/walk.  It is motivating me to run other times during the week.  I feel fantastic!  

I look at my pile of books I would like to read.  It keeps growing.  I just need to lock myself in my room, no phone, no laptop and read a few books.  It needs to be done.

Yoga was fantastic.  I am incredibly thankful for the people who attend my classes and allow me to call them my tribe.  It is a beautiful thing.

Role models

I try to take a yoga class for my own personal practice at least once a month.  I feel that it keeps me grounded, inspired and spending a little bit of time on myself. (in this arena. Clearly, I believe in self care which reminds me. I should set up an appointment for a body scrub soon)

Yesterday, the class started and the instructor was speaking of how we all benefit from continuing to feel youthful as we age.  He suggested that in our 40's, 50's, 60's, 70's and 80's--it was practical to continue to strengthen and be viable.  Encouraged it to the point of being role models.  He repeated this several times during the session.  Be a role model.  Use your body.  Continue to strengthen and move.

There were examples, too.  There was a study where a group of older gentleman went to a resort. Instead of their baggage being taken care of, they were required to carry it themselves.  Within a few days, they felt as if twenty years had been stripped from their lives.  They felt youthful, capable, confident.

All of these things resonate with me.  I firmly believe in the physicality of life.  We slowly begin to die when we discontinue growing, learning or moving.  Being sedentary does nothing for us but begin the death dance.  Maybe I am being a little too morbid.  That is not my intention. I only want to stress the importance of movement, any movement, as we age.  

I intend to be a role model and continue to go upside down in my yoga practice.  I did, last night.  I just remembered that. They actually cued that early in the sequence which is rare.  Typically, going upside down for a length of time is reserved for the closing poses.  I have not attempted to teach a headstand in a class yet.  I think I hesitate to do it virtually due to obvious risks.  In person, is still infrequent outside of park yoga and that is a mixed level class.  I think when I am ready to attempt that teaching moment it will be with one student.  I would feel more comfortable.  Still, I love going upside down in my own practice. Sometimes, I tackle this while people are in savasana and cannot see me being narcissistic. I think that everyone is to some degree.  I prefer not to showcase it.  Moreover, truly, I am mostly comfortable showing off mainly in yoga.  Perhaps with bragging about how often I get a body scrub, too.  Sorry, for sounding so ridiculous right now.

I wanted to blog to avoid doing some other necessary creative tasks. I will get to it.  Just need to work up to it.

How can you be a role model?  Are you interested in continuing to display fitness, strength and wellness as you age?  Why do we put so much emphasis on being young?  I think, in some ways, I looked way better five years ago then I did in my early twenties.  And, I had the confidence to match when I was older.  No longer consumed by what other people thought.  We waste so much energy on thinking we want to be young.  Yet, we are navigating how to make things function while we are young.  We can still be reliant on our family and friends, to an extent, when we are young.  Relying on other people's opinions of what is right or wrong.  Instead of trusting yourself.  And, now with social media--wow, forget it!  I don't want to return to my 20's. I am excited to be exactly where I am at.  

I hope you enjoy your evening.  Spending it however you see fit.  Cheers!

Random tangents how I always maneuver

There is always some background music going on in my head.  I could have a random thought and next thing, I know, new song.  Sometimes, I am fine with it.  Other times, I resent the song in my head and share it with others.

I cannot believe we are in May and that I am still figuring a few things out.  I have managed to return to running.  Kind of.  I have run/walk the three of the last six days.  I would have loved to have attempted it yesterday.  Honestly, it was chilly, overcast and raining.  Inspired me to hunker down and watch movies.  Bull Durham--one of the best baseball movies in my humble opinion and Heat.  Completely different genres.  Both superbly acted and kept my attention.  

I had an ongoing conversation with a new friend about travel, life and food. I could talk travel and food, ad naseum.  He inquired which cities did I enjoy dining in the best without using Denver or Santa Fe.  I have spent the most time in those two cities and I think he was surprised at the amount of my travel I have done. Taking those out of the equation didn't really minimize me.

Furthermore, that navigating my food/travel journal has stayed on my mind today.  I went running and considered some of my experiences.  My dinner at Tru in Chicago in 2007 where I wanted the full tasting menu and sacrificed my comfort to sit in the dining room to achieve that.  At that time, they did not offer the tasting menu int he bar.

As my third course was being served, the concierge greeted me and asked if there was anything they could do to improve my dining experience.  I asked if he would ask a gentleman across the restaurant to join me.  So he did.  I finished my 9 course tasting menu with a 19 year old kid, named Sam, who worked in their kitchen.  They wanted him to get the full experience of dining there and so that night he was a customer.  I felt like Mrs. Robinson!  We talked about food, dreams, life.  He considered pursuing a musician's life.  Conflicted, actually, on which path to pursue.

Or the night at Daniel in NYC.  I asked my friend, Manraj, to join me.  He told me he had plans when ijn reality, he was intimidated by the price.  He told me that later, lol. I went solo.  Met Daniel as he greeted me when I entered the establishment.  Ordered an orchid martini and a three course tasting menu.  As I knew the pastry chef the meal changed.  Suddenly three courses transformed into six.  With a tour of the restaurant to conclude.  It was amazing and an experience I will never forget.  The meal was comped since I was friends with the pastry chef.  

I did not tell my friend any of this.  Instead, I said that I loved dining in Chicago, NOLA, San Francisco, NYC and Dallas.  Reflecting, I think I could have easily said Seattle, San Diego, Phoenix, Nashville, Kansas City.  Or Montreal. I loved my time in Montreal.  

He mentioned Las Vegas and I was kicking myself for omitting Las Vegas.  I have dined there so many times and had incredible experiences.  I have gambled once and made money.  Other times, played slot machines, minimally, and watched others gamble.

Then there is the Korean Spa factor in Las Vegas, Denver and Dallas.  One of my favorite things on the planet. I believe in self-care and taking care of my skin.  Perhaps I could be a little better with lotion to moisturize but for the most part I baby my skin.  I consider circulation, hydration and movement.

I digress.  More than likely, I will think about food and places I have dined for the next few days.  I am taking a break from imbibing to feel better, productive and enhance my sleep.  So far, so good.

I have a class to teach.  I will return with more tangents later.

April newsletter

 

Live your best life

Live your best life.  What does that mean to you?

For me...it means self-care, positivity, visualization.  I think about this often.  Dream about it.  I have been experiencing vivid dreams.  One in which my accountant called me an entitled bitch.  WTF?  If anything, I gave her a wide avenue to conduct my taxes.

Another where the Warrior Prince reached out and held a sign that said he missed me.  Yes, my subconscious mind has been all over the place.  In the last two days, I have run into acquaintances from a former friendship and experienced wildly different situations.  In one, the tension could cut a knife.  In the other, I was invited to sit with the acquaintance and his friend.  It is interesting.

I can only do me.  I can only focus on living my best life.  Reading, contemplating, honoring the food I ingest and allow in my body. I can send healing vibes to people that need it.  But, I cannot and will not discredit where I am in my journey by backsliding or not acknowledging that I am on a new path.  No more listening to overwhelmingly negative people to make them feel better.  I just won't.

It is crazy.  I can maneuver through my day, feel confident, and then go to sleep and my mind races.  Fear, doubt, shame.  Mostly uncertainty.  It is insane.  I wake up, feeling fine and know that I am making right decisions for myself.  At night, the fear overtakes everything else.

My best life always will be doing what I want.  Taking care of myself and proceeding as needed.  I do hope to journal more and make that more of a habit.  I believe I am on the right path.  I doubt myself, at times, but honestly, know I am being true to myself.  I will always be okay.

The yoga class in the a.m. is something I look forward to weekly.  I am hoping to incorporate a few additional classes.  Maybe a midweek class.  I think that will work out nicely. Even if it is only me attending the classes.  I need to do this for me.

Why limit what I am able to do?  It is insane but likely.  When you go against the grain, it is easier to reform to what is acceptable.  College.  Marriage.  Kids.  House.  I have done one of these things.  One.  I never feel bad about it either.

Find peace with where you are at and thrive!

Detox, basketball, taxes and life

Detox cleanse went well.  Provided insight on how to attempt a balance between eating clean and enjoying life.  Enjoying life.  Meaning enjoying wine and not feeling guilty about it.  

In the last few months, I have had several conversations about alcohol. I have had a few acquaintances die from their reliance on alcohol and a few others come to the edge of it.  It seems accessible in your twenties. If you are hungover it is more manageable than being in your 30's or 40's.  As I have seen friends decide to stop drinking, it is something that is on my mind. I enjoy the socializing aspects of it.  In addition, I enjoy wine with dinner.  That being said, I also enjoy breaks from it.  Maybe to prove that I am not reliant on it.

The last week has been interesting. Lots of celebrating March Madness.  RCJH!  It was an epic game.  I watched it at Elway's with friends.  Then, I watched it again.  And loved it.  I think I floated around my life for three days this week.  

I try to patient and considerate.  If not, compassionate.  My current accountant is frustrating me.  I sent her my information before I left for Florida with the hope that she would address the paperwork in February.  Instead, after reaching out tonight and expressing my need to mentally prepare for the taxes, she asked me two questions that could have been addressed immediately.  Actually, had she reviewed her notes to me, she could have referenced one of the questions she asked.  It was definitely on the irritating side.  I want to be understanding.  I am frustrated and basically waiting to hear back.

I have a trip to Santa Fe on Sunday.  It should be great and necessary.  A little break to reset and identify what is important.  I struggle at times with how to navigate my direction.  Ultimately, I know that everything will be fine and work out.  I question the means.  But, I know I am okay.

I hope to return to cooking more at home and being mindful in some of those decisions.  It is easy to rely on convenience.  However, it is like compounding the calories and maxing out the day. I need to be more mindful of that.  I want to continue to be doing donkey kicks when I am 70, lol.

Life is what you make of it.  If you put your mind to a task, you complete it.  If you focus on distraction, gossip or negativity you stay in that zone.  I want to be moving upward and onward.

Yoga in the park or not

Beautiful day now.  When it started, overcast, chilly and unmotivating. I considered how Saturday might look.  Some of my clients are pushing me to move the Saturday session back outdoors.  

There are many pro's to this.  Start on time instead of ten, fifteen or sometimes thirty minutes late. This has only happened one time but it definitely made an impact on my clients.  I get it.  I do.  They all work during the week and so weekends are a precious commodity.  Not to mention, they are focusing on their health and so starting on time is essential.  Enjoy the sun as you enjoy your savasana.  Take in fresh air as you move from pose to pose.  

The downside to being outside.  Weather is unpredictable.  We have practiced when it was 40 degrees.  Manageable and not terrible until the wind kicked up.  The wind can make or break the experience.  Sometimes there are porta potties available.  Sometimes, there are not. Seems like it would be a minimal issue unless you drive to do yoga and find yourself in a position to need to urinate.  Geese can be aggressive. And we are a little more exposed to the public.  

Doing yoga at the bar enables people watching for me.  I love watching the randomness of Saturday morning folks on Colfax. There is a mix of people.  People walking with coffee who appear productive and making their way to the park, people looking for a place to rest, sit or ask for money, and people with dogs. I never know who I am going to encounter.  It is remarkable and contributes to the beauty of the overall experience.  And, Jordan is a fantastic host.  I appreciate his friendship and the levity he provides.  He always rolls in without a care in the world.  Regardless of the timing, he will sweep to ensure that the space is clean.  An admirable trait, I would say.

I am conflicted because as much I recognize the need to start on time, I cannot predict the weather.  As noted, this morning, the weather was crap.  Yesterday was the complete opposite.  Gorgeous day and I walked City Park and basked in the sunshine.  Today, I walked to my gym and wished that I had worn more clothing instead of capri pants and a hoodie.  

I am considering how to incorporate more group classes.  Maybe small in person sessions in my apartment.  Perhaps, an opportunity to do a midweek class at the park around 4 or 4:30.  Or, offering a class both Saturday and Sunday morning.  I want to be doing more.

The detox cleanse is going well.  I checked my weight today and feel incredible.  Progress and opportunity to continue.  I think I may enjoy a beverage tomorrow while watching the KU games.  the detox is set to conclude on Sunday.  Moving forward, I want to think about how to continue good habits regarding my food intake.  I see how much I rely on take out due to convenience and being lazy.  I could meal prep and benefit.  This week has displayed that. It isn't that much more work either.  It just takes commitment and time.  

I was invited to Spokane for a birthday celebration in July.  The end of June I will be in Kansas for a vow renewal. I see how my year is shaping up.  More travel and celebrations.  I have friends in Peru currently and it is inspiring me figure out an international trip. Stop hiding behind the pandemic and purchase a ticket and just go.

I believe that everything will work out for the best.  I will figure out where to practice tomorrow morning.  Until then, I will focus on how to continue this journey of health and wellness.  There is a balance.  Sometimes, I flirt with the overindulging a little too much. Then, I find myself in this spot.  Needing to detox, reset, reflect.