Finding joy?

Cat videos are the best.  

This past week has been chaotic.  Designed that way to distract, overwhelm and destroy pushing back.  It is nonstop bullshit.  Overwhelming shock and awe.  

I am trying to sort through the crazy and stay sane.  It isn't easy.  Believe me, I get sucked into the echo chamber and react.  I don't know what to believe.  

I believe there are many people, like me, who want to push back.  To stay healthy, have access to facts, clean water, fair housing, and food.  To know what I am putting in my body and feel safe doing it.  Somehow, we are trying to eliminate access to these things.  We want people sick, depressed, poor.  Why?  So they will give in to what they are trying to achieve.  Blind walking into a fascist state.  Where you have no rights.  No opportunity to improve your life.  No access to education.  Just accepting the shit sandwich that they provide you.  It's nuts.

They hide behind religion.  Using the cross to indicate that they are bringing god's message.  Yet, they are eliminating programs to help the poor, needy, children.  Isn't that what Christianity is all about?  Isn't that a tenet of religion?  To be welcoming to everyone.  

Instead, they are completely creating chaos to instill fear and compliance.  Refuse to be compliant.  Recognize this for what it is.  Do not lie down and think this is the only way.  Know that you are not alone.  That there are many other people who do not agree with this.  That there is a way through this.  Find joy and gratitude instead of rolling over.  Also, eventually, there will be people standing up for themselves.  Yes, there are a lot of uneducated people that continue to support this man inspite of how it affects their lives.  How do you support someone who wants to get rid of medicaid?  Snap?  Or Head Start?  These programs are in place to help people.  Isn't that why we pay taxes?

No, I am not supporting socialism.  I am supporting being a human being.  Yes, we pay taxes that support a number of things.  Infrastructure, military, social security, etc....that all seems fine.  But when we want to support kids, programs for veterans, poor, or sick, we want to eliminate them.  How does this seem right?

I am struggling.  I do find joy.  Knowing I have a good support system and people in my life.