Random Friday night off thoughts...I had the best day. Mostly, due to the weather. Amazing after two nights ago when I woke up, multiple times, due to marinating in my own sweat. I had to do the Sara trick. As a child, Sara lived in Florida. Her parents were unwilling to turn on the a/c since they had a swimming pool for them. Her mom always suggested putting a cold cloth on her forehead and belly that would cool you down. It does. But, it isn't that comforting to think about as you wake up, endlessly, due to not being able to sleep.
I have multiple fans in addition to a ceiling fan that should be more than enough. Yet, two nights ago, I thought I was going to die of heat exhaustion. Okay. So, I am exaggerating a little. I knew that I wouldn't die but it sure was frustrating to wake up because I was hot.
This morning was delightful! I woke up, cold. I turned off my fans. It was that cold. I met my trainer after going through my morning ritual--lemon water, coffee, protein bar. Sometimes, vitamins...sometimes, not. I shower and then walk to my gym. First thing she does is put me on the scale. I see that there had been progress. That making some sacrifices had resulted in positivity. She asked me how I felt. My response, great and then I continued with....and I didn't wake up hungover, once.
She laughed. I was being completely honest. I didn't drink remotely excessively in the last week. I dined out more than I anticipated and still was able to tone up. I feel good and I feel that Courtney feels I will be a success story. I feel that I can commit to this and make progress. I have been more aware of what I am putting in my body. For example, I met Jenn for dinner last night. Initially, we talked about checking out a new place in Stapleton. A female chef that was trying out her own place. I was excited to check it out but location wise, I wasn't thrilled. I was thinking about a way to either cancel or change since I was uninterested in driving to Stapleton. For some reason, Jenn had ESP and she mentioned that she preferred something more casual. She was craving sushi (her go to). I asked if we could go elsewhere. Her next suggestion was her typical response. I vetoed that as well. I suggested three or four spots around our area which did not interest her. She mentioned Mexican at which point, I caved in. I wasn't thrilled about loading up on cheese, chips and guacamole the night before I met my trainer, but we were getting nowhere and fast. I agreed that I would meet her at a spot I had dined at many times with most of my family. It was a place that I would meet Brian for lunch. I love it. Very nostalgic.
However, I didn't really want margaritas. I arrived to find a carafe of margaritas. They do not make a good margarita. It's shitty. And, I was wrecking my diet for this. Terrible drinks and a taco salad. In all honesty, I refrained from eating the fried taco shell. I tried to be good. I was aware that I was choosing this food to be kind to my friend and make the most of it.
After meeting my trainer, I felt that I could have made better choices and fared better. Yet, when she asked me what I would like to do for next week, I realized that I am thankful for making some mistakes that I can maybe take care of in the next week. I like wine. I like cheese. I will not cut them out of my diet as I am learning tonight. I am celebrating my success with wine and the remainder of my spaghetti and meatball. I feel full, sated.
I found a book that I feel like a narcissist. Harmony, by Carolyn Parkhurst. I found her years ago when perusing books at a Barnes and Noble. The dogs of Babel intrigued me and captured my attention for the length of the book. Harmony, also appears to take me in. It reminds me of what I am currently re-watching. How great of a show was Parenthood? Seriously! I find myself emotionally overwhelmed. The dynamics of family and things that happen in their lives.
Back to Harmony....a couple has two daughters. The older of which falls somewhere on the autism spectrum and has been kicked out of multiple schools. Distraught, the couple try to figure out what is best for their daughters and opt to attend a family camp in the woods. The perspective alternates between their younger daughter who does not have autism and the mother. It's funny, honest, genuine. I put it down to have dinner and blog.
I appreciate how honest it is. I am looking forward to how it concludes. I requested additional books that I plan on reading the next few weeks. I feel like this is my summer of reading. And self care. Did I mention my thai massage today? Or that I went to a matinee? I was disappointed in Beatriz at Dinner. They could have done so much more. It was like an amuse bouche with no finish. Most of what you see in the trailers are key moments. There was no conclusion. It just ended.
Very simplified synopsis, I know. I don't feel like putting any effort into it. It was dismal.
I did see a preview for the Big Sick. I am a big fan of Holly Hunter and Ray Romano. I think this film is going to be great.
I am done. I need to return to my book. It is that amusing!