Life is short. Believe me, of most people, I absolutely understand the importance of saying what you mean, doing what you want, etc. Tonight, I am reminded, again, that sometimes reason takes the back court to what is necessary.
My uncle passed. They still don't know why. He was a good man. Gentle, kind, involved. My sister called to let me know the news. I thought she was calling to thank me for coming out to Oregon to celebrate her daughter's graduation. How wrong I was.
I think of things in my life. What I would like to communicate and sort. Instead, I hide behind what is known. Why? Does it make it any easier? NO. Especially when I receive news like tonight. My uncle was a good man. He had four kids and many many grandkids. Seems nonsensical.
I was gifted a dresser two days ago. Mint green with wood surfaces. I thought about how I would like to upgrade this. Looked at DIY websites and eventually walked away. I wanted to really think about what I wanted to do. Should I cover it in newspaper? Wall paper? Photos?
Or do a mix of newspaper and photo? Eventually, I realized that I wanted to do a montage of black and white photos with some colors intertwined. I would coat the sides of the dresser, the top and the mirror. I will leave the cabinets to green. Still undecided as to if I do the base with black and whites photos.
I will attend an early morning barre class. Think 6:15. Then work. Rest and repeat. I have plans with Sara Jo and a coffee date with my aunt on Sunday. I am well. Thriving.
Tomorrow is a good day. Full of opportunity and possibility. I am excited to be here now.